baggage : a short short story by me

I have been seeing this guy, had not been planning on that right now, I had lots of plans, a relationship was not part of said plans.

I saw him last night, we spent the night together, while we slept all my baggage crawled out of the closet and began to arrange itself around the bed, spilling all my crap out on the floor, he only caught a glimpse of it, but I saw it all in pretty piles, covering every surface, hanging out of drawers, swinging from the ceiling light, creeping up to the bed wrapping itself around my legs and eventually covering my whole body.

Somehow I managed to pretend it wasn't there, saw him out the door, and spent the next few hours stuffing it all back into the suitcases, duffle bags, steamer trunks, and shipping containers, crammed it all back into my closet.... I'm getting a lock for the closet door, maybe an armed guard.

that was fast

This is kind of frustrating, I spent two days doing some good work, practicing practicing practicing drawing. Being in the moment, feeling good about the choices I make. Now I have to go back to work, 16 hour days. I enjoy my work, I could cut my hours back, I want to..... but I need/want/like the $$, and I like my jobs and I am learning things that is all good. I also want to exercise and get into shape maybe run some races in the future...make art....cook...bake....how will/can I fit it all in?

I want to go to Portland to check it out. I want to go to Champaign to see where that is going.... I want to go to MIchigan to see Raph, I want more hours in the day.

What is all that wanting about?


198 introductions since the last count. My heart is breaking.

finally two more

My work schedule has been crazy it has taken a few weeks to get used to it. Maybe that has happened. Here are two new ones, one from a week or so ago and one from last night. I am going back to drawing as soon as I finish this post. UGGGGG for some reason I wish I still smoked, I need a cigarette.

Sooooo many introductions since the last post. I'm afraid to count. I'll post the # later today.

M