thank you to Metok

My thank you card to Metok who spent a lot of time and energy setting me on the right path, very recently.

I feel a bit better, so it took three days to get them done, but now I have 2 small pieces to show for my time spent "in studio" blah blah blah blah. But I have the feeling I will really do this this summer. Cross every finger and toes and anything you can cross. Please let this happen. Please let this happen please let this happen.

8 brave people introduced themselves in the past 24 hours.

Love,
M

end result of two days in studio

Ok so I got one drawing, actually a couple more but not really happy with them, less unhappy with this one. I'll live with it for a few days and then declare myself satisfied or not.

But I did get the letter written to my folks, will mail it tomorrow. Yippee for me, no flashbacks, no panic attack, one started but I nipped it in the bud.

While I am happy with what I accomplished these past few days, lots of house work and the letter and "in my studio" mindset for a number of hours, I still have a long way to go.

Mostly happy I figured out I could listen to Billie Holiday on Pandora, score.

night,
M

day 2 in studio

Well one of these will be the focus for today. I'll include the drawings in the next post. I am loving this although I could be getting more done, I get distracted by the shiny so easily. On that note here I go.

9 people have introduced themselves.

day 1 in studio

sounds more impressive than it is. Really I just mean I am forcing myself to make art, even that sounds more impressive than it is, trying this whole self discipline thing.

to honor those who are brave and seek healing

Starting today I am going to post a number, it is taken from another website that is a support group website for survivors/victims of sexual assault. The number represents the number of people who are joining the website. That means of all the people who have been sexually assaulted, all over the world, the few who have access to a computer, who have found this website, who want to join the discussion, who want to admit what has happened to them, this number represents them.

This is in honor of them. Last night 3 people introduced themselves.

taking a vow of silence

Seems lately I say the wrong thing at the wrong time, I think I will take a vow of silence. Not here or with a few friends, but mostly everywhere else.
Pisses me off but better to just shut up I guess.

: (

M

Miss Tibet

She exists, check out the web site

http://www.misstibet.com

Metok

Or Katherine, I change my mind on which to call her and sometimes she changes her mind about it also. So if you saw my last blog, you know I was in the depths last night, falling asleep in that mind state can't be good, unless the magical Metok comes dancing and smiling and giggling into your dreams. In which case it doesn't matter what frame of mind you fall asleep in, you wake light, free, weightless, and unencumbered by any of this worlds troubles.

This even though she is fully in this world, most of the time, she gives the gift of light and freedom.

Blessings on you Metok/Katherine.